There’s no one to tell

Recently, as I was preparing to pay some monthly bills, the thought of loneliness or being alone struck me. Let me explain.

Ursula handled all the finances. Now, the finances are my responsibility. Ursula constantly communicated What was being paid, how much, and what we had left over. Now, as I click to make a payment, check the accounts, transfer monies, etc., there’s no one to communicate that with; there’s no one to tell. I’m realizing this is my life now because the one you created this life with is no longer here to share it with, to communicate with, and that’s a lonely feeling. Oh, I have my children, but I think most of you get what I’m saying. There’s no one to tell.